i am good - am i

i keep hearing this many a time
you are so so so very good
am i sure of hearing the right words
is it true that i am good by any right

it pains for me when some one praises
for i am at times seething in anger and am jealous
for i am human, i have my flaws
i see it loud and clear, cant you duh

i love and adore those who are so close
but jealousy still knocks on my minds door
it says how can they be better than you
eeeessshhhh- i am boiling like stew

it does boost my false ego and pushes me up
but still i know not all is thumbs up
i still pray to the HIM and ask
give me the strength to overcome this task

give me richness in acceptance of others strengths
give me power to undo my jealous soujourns
for all those who i feel J about are ones
who i always adore the most

to wreck or to be wrecked

diabolic dimensions seething
vitriolic fluids oozing
destructive minds flirting
to take or be taken,its testing

mind is fickle minded,seeking
undue advantage around,blending
suave with connive,celebrating
destruction of human spending

revenge is all written large
its like the extra starch
which sticks to your skin cloth
leaves you stiff and skewed

will the soul be bathed by
the pureness anytime soon
will there be light closer
to home, that i can see bright