life is a beautiful agony

with you in my life
i can think of still living
still smiling, still enjoying
the beauty that is life
all becos you are there
when you move away
a burden of thoughts descend on me
unwanted ideas shoot my brain
then i think, what if she never was
what if she never was meant to be
my head calms, my soul smoothens
my life turns back to a normal one
but u bounce back with all vengeance
and take my heart away in a jiff
oh!! do i miss u so much now
oh!! do i love u so much more
oh!! r u still for me
oh!! life- u r such a beautiful agony